Welcome to Just Words In Your Head
As a writer, I often struggle with getting the words in my head onto a page. My own insecurity prevents me from making these thoughts real and tangible.
So I created this space, to record my thoughts, my work, and my process. In the hopes that my discoveries will help others in need.
– Just Words
About Just Words
So here you are, reading about me and trying to understand the inner-workings of my mind. Or you’re just bored. I vote the latter.
I’ll be straight forward. I’m 29 (almost 30). Married. I write anything from one line poetry to propaganda. I’ve been “making books” and writing my thoughts down since I learned how to write. It was very different at first because my native language is Chinese. Writing stories in Mandarin isn’t nearly as interesting as writing in English. I never got the chance to play around with Mandarin the way I learned to play around with English.
I have two home towns. Taipei, Taiwan–the place of my birth–and Vancouver, Canada–the place I became an adult. I am considered to be a “white-washed” Asian. And I don’t mind that at all.
My first foray into the cyber sphere was a page I built on FreeVote.com. Don’t try going to that page now–it no longer exists. I made a page way back in 1997 and it was in the format of an online Poll. Being the quiet non-English-speaking foreigner at my Middle School, I decided to build an online poll with the funniest (meanest) comments I could think of for all of my classmates. Everyone in my school could go to this page and vote on whether the school jock was a) a douche, or b) a homo. Clever, I know.
The page was built as a quiet rebellion against the the recent trend of my school mates dubbing me “Jane Fart”. I had no idea the page itself would blow up the way it did. Within the week, the entire school was talking about it. Most of them found the page hilarious as it was constantly updated with the “current events” that happened at the school. People wanted to know who built the page.
So I made a yahoo email address (firstname.lastname@example.org) to receive mail from the page. People sent me emails praising my humor and for once I had the “cool kids” telling me how funny I was–all without knowing who I actually was. That was my first taste of what internet anonymity could do. Eventually the talk for my page died down, as all middle school fads would.
I became better at English and I found friends. Internet took a back seat until I graduated high school and the loneliness that came with college newness brought me back to the Internet.
It was an online forum based solely on Naruto. This was back before Naruto even came to North America. I frequented the forum as well as the Yahoo chat group for Vancouver. I became a moderator on both through my frequent contribution of smart-ass remarks. It was exciting to “be the boss” of a part of cyberspace.
In 2004, I moved on to RedvsBlue forums. I lurked a bit while it was still just a PHP forum and I made a couple of comments here and there. I found a section of the forum called The Bar where people like me went to shoot the shit. I stuck around there until late 2009.
Through out all that time, I maintained a Xanga blog. I can’t link it here because I haven’t upgraded to Xanga 2.0. Hey, at least they backed up and archived my data for me to import.
Long story short, I’m Jane. I’m a writer / IT Project Manager. I try to knit and crochet on my free time, but really I just spend it reading and watching TV shows. I write about things that interest me in the news. I write about my life in Stamford, CT.
Writing is about displaying a perspective with the greatest flourish. Everyone wants to be read.
A Mission Statement… of Sorts…
I first created this place for the purpose of putting random word vomit whenever inspiration eluded me. Back then, there were constant dialogues between characters who dug their way into my imagination unwanted. I struggled to get them on a page… so hence they were Just Words In My Head.
But today? Today the characters have gone quiet. It’s as if they’re angry with me for not giving them the attention they deserve.
So… I’m creating this page to give myself a bit of a pep talk, so to say. My goal is to write something every single day, no matter how shitty I think it ends up being, I’ll put it down on paper so it can exist somewhere.
Here’s to writing.
Don’t agree with me on something? Tell me about it.